My Confusion.

     So, at this moment in time I am very confused at what I want. I'm catching myself contradicting things I say on a regular basis and it doesn't feel good when I do. It is as if I am lying to myself. 

     I keep thinking it all through, and by the time I'm halfway through thinking about whatever it is  I am thinking of I either become aggravated or my mind and thoughts become mush. Either way, I do not feel well. 

     Why do we have to be confused. Can we just not know the answer immediately? Most of the time I do know the right answer, but then when emotions are added into the mix things become sketchy and questionable, leading into the confusion of it. 

     Now did any of that make sense? Or did I confuse you as well?